God laughs?

Eh, so as most of you in the vacinity of me know, my scheduling for classes isn't going so hot. Looks like I won't be let into a required class which will push back my graduation date a whole semester. Or if I wanted to, I would have the option of going to summer school, but missing out on going on an awesome summer project with Campus Crusade. I'm a little puzzled at this point and don't really know what to think of all of it. Just a week ago things seemed crystal clear, but then again that is kind of the funny thing about life; just when it is the clearest is when the fog starts rolling in.

So I'm sitting here staring blankly at the computer screen, and I don't really know why. Maybe I'm hoping the answer will show up on my screen or God will send me an IM or the answer will pop up as a friend on the facebook. But I gave up on that and started intently checking away messages, when in a profile I spotted the following quote:

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy"

and I thought that sounded nice, but what really caught my attention was the next quote, hidden at the bottom:

"if you wanna hear GOD laugh, tell him your plans"

I think my jaw hit my desk. As Christians we are always told to "give it all to God" "give it to God"... but do we really? I thought I had God's plan in mind but I think it was more like Jenn's plan for God's plan. I somehow just have this picture of God listening to my prayers and looking down on my life going "oh dear, if she only knew what I have in store for her"... and there is probably some giggling in there! I think I am finally begining to realize that I am not in control, but God really is. There is a time with everything in which you just have to let go, no matter how painful. This is my future, my life, my career all at stake, but God knows better than me. It is time to set down the timetable, stop the mad emailing to professors, and let God take control. I praise him that he is more knowing and powerful than myself.

God take control.

"Trust in the Lord with all of your heart and lean not on your own understanding, in all of your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." - Proverbs 3:5-6